steffaloo:

i used to throw up when i’d start to feel life too much.  i haven’t thrown up because of that in over a year.  i’ve either learned how to manage these feelings better, or i’ve just stopped feeling as much.  i’m afraid it’s the latter.  and i think i’d rather throw up and feel a lot than feel nothing and never throw up.

the problem is, no matter which extreme you’re at, you always wish you were on the other one.